God has been growing me in the area of honesty.\u00a0 (Psalm 62:8)\u00a0 I have often felt like a “good Christian” should never doubt God or question anything He says.\u00a0 So, in an effort to appear “good” (because I thought that’s what would earn\u00a0love and acceptance), I have rarely voiced my doubts or questions, especially to God.\u00a0 The funny thing is God already knows all my doubts and questions.\u00a0 Nothing is hidden from Him.\u00a0 (Hebrews 4:13)\u00a0 Through a conversation with Him the other day, I saw that my being honest with Him allowed Him to come in and heal me.\u00a0 The conversation (not audible, but in my heart & mind) went something like this:<\/p>\n
Me:\u00a0 I can’t be good all the time.\u00a0 I try so hard, but I just can’t.\u00a0 I’ll never be good enough.<\/em><\/p>\n God:\u00a0 It’s okay.\u00a0 I love you even when you mess up.<\/em><\/p>\n Me:\u00a0 That doesn’t make any sense!\u00a0 Other people get mad at me when I mess up.\u00a0 I get mad at other people when they do something wrong.\u00a0 How can you love me and not be angry at me when I fail?<\/em><\/p>\n God:\u00a0 I’m not like you.\u00a0 I love you even when you’re bad.\u00a0 I can watch you do things wrong and not be mad at you.\u00a0 I’m just different.\u00a0 I give you the freedom to fail.<\/em><\/p>\n Me:\u00a0 But, how can you do that?\u00a0 I don’t deserve to be loved!<\/em><\/p>\n God:\u00a0 I am GOD.\u00a0 I AM love.\u00a0 That’s just what I do.<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" God has been growing me in the area of honesty.\u00a0 (Psalm 62:8)\u00a0 I have often felt like a “good Christian” should never doubt God or question anything He says.\u00a0 So, in an effort to appear “good” (because I thought that’s what would earn\u00a0love and acceptance), I have rarely voiced my doubts or questions, especially to God.\u00a0 The funny thing is God already knows all my doubts and questions.\u00a0 Nothing is hidden from Him.\u00a0 (Hebrews 4:13)\u00a0 Through a conversation with Him the other day, I saw that my being honest with Him allowed Him to come in and heal me.\u00a0 The conversation (not audible, but in my heart & mind) went something like this: Me:\u00a0 I can’t be good all the time.\u00a0 I try so hard, but I just can’t.\u00a0 I’ll never be good enough. God:\u00a0 It’s okay.\u00a0 I love you even when you mess up. Me:\u00a0 That doesn’t make any<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/anewlifedesign.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/121"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/anewlifedesign.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/anewlifedesign.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/anewlifedesign.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/4"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/anewlifedesign.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=121"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/anewlifedesign.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/121\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/anewlifedesign.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=121"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/anewlifedesign.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=121"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/anewlifedesign.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=121"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}